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twothousandhate? [03 Jan 2009|09:12pm]
I think that's what we're all talking about. I went back to CCS in January, I moved into a beautiful building in February, was fired in August, and was amorous all of the time after and inbetween. I missed certain people, and was thankful that I wasn't certain others. Instead of remembering why it was bad, I'm going to finishing making my house a home tonight, and feel really good when I wake up tomorrow.

I have a livejournal here: dear_plastic
I have a blog here: ashnowak.blogspot.com
I put pictures that J takes a lot of here: flickr.com/ashnowak

I am on myspace and facebook, like everyone else.

most importantly, I have an e-mail address here: adnowak@gmail.com

please either comment your home mailing address, or e-mail it to me if that makes you more comfortable. I want to get back into letters and tapes this year, and want to make something for you if that's okay.

I love you.
2+| i want an explanation.

[10 Aug 2008|01:52am]
Unfortunately I used my job as a defining quality of my life and now that it's gone I have this awful void. I'm supposed to be an artist. Now it's almost 2 am on Saturday night and I am sitting at home feeling like shit and talking to my ELECTRONIC JOURNAL because I just don't know what else to do. This blows.
3+| i want an explanation.

states that aren't for lovers. [31 Jul 2008|12:32am]
Bill taking my mom on a romantic roadtrip to IOWA this week means that I get to enjoy cable and central air.

Frasier is still not a funny show, I can't believe it's in syndication. Project Runway still rules, though. Sheer Genius is less than mediocre.

Everything that has been happening lately feels really important. Like every moment is vital. Is that how it always is? I have been working a lot more passionately since my blind spells (they have subsided, by the way.) and just trying to enjoy life as much as possible. Sure, most things and people are still stupid, but I think that makes whatever's left over that much more special.

Sunday night was so fun that "I wish my brain recorded video."
1+| i want an explanation.

update: [23 Jul 2008|08:40pm]
After experiencing two episodes of temporary blindness in the course of 24 hours, I went to an opthomologist who promised me (repeatedly) that I was not having a stroke. Apparently, it was just (just?) an opthomological migrane. Which, as opposed to a regular migrane, you just go blind instead of getting a headache.

I guess they are brought on by stress, but if I just relax my body when I am experiencing an episode, it is supposed to clear up right away. I can't understand or adapt to the logic behind that. If I was able to relax, I wouldn't be losing my shit in the first place.

So, in light of recent events, I am kindly asking that nobody expects anything of me for the next week or so. If you want to come over and drink iced tea and listen to nice music with me, that would be acceptable.

Danny said I looked "based out" today. I wish!
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whatever [22 Jul 2008|11:57am]
Yesterday at work I went blind for almost 3 minutes. I remember actually feeling pretty good, then shades of grey covering one, and eventually both of my eyes. Don't worry, I finished my shift.

There is a lot that needs to get done today and I am not happy about that.

I haven't felt good in a really long time. But who has?
4+| i want an explanation.

son of a bitch! [13 Jul 2008|10:56pm]
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[15 Jun 2008|09:15pm]
Today I got tanked and talked shit with a very lovely lady, who then handed me a twenty and sent me to get pizza. After not having talked to eachother for over a decade, this afternoon was our third visit of the year. Before I left she gave me a neclace her husband bought her on a business trip in France, a chain with a gold and onyx crab on it. I put it around my neck and realized how befitting it was to both of us. This lady is my grandmother, by the way.

Sometimes a life that doesn't make any sense is it's own reward.
i want an explanation.

things overheard at the Brooklyn Lofts: [15 Jun 2008|12:29am]
[ mood | depressed ]

girl 1: Haven't you ever done coke off a beer pong table before?
girl 2: I've never done coke at all.
girl 1: God! That's so weird to me...

No, no- beneath my open window is the perfect place for a beer pong table/new drug experience. Don't even worry about it. Maybe I'm just jealous because I'm sitting inside making stacks of paper instead of enjoying summer like these jokers.

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whatever [30 May 2008|03:47pm]
My refrigerator is nothing but coffee, high life, and soon-to-be expired yogurt. I feel SO COLLEGE. JD and I attended the Considering Detroit discussion panel at MOCAD last night and I would have preferred if A. I was on it, and B. It took place in my studio with a case of beer.

I have to go to work in 10 minutes, where I will attempt to finish my fantastic wall of legs and ladies undergarments. If anyone touched it in the past day I am going to scream. I am so possessive of my job it's actually quite scary.

After work, Denice and I are going to see KITH! I'm so excited, the only person I know who loves them as much as I do is my mom.

I can't wait until landscape painting starts. I opted to take it during the summer because I am convinced that we will get to work outside everyday. We'll see.
4+| i want an explanation.

[14 May 2008|10:54pm]
Although I am currently living and working in my dream loft, some days I wish I lived in the suburbs so I could go for really long walks at night without being concerned about getting R'ed in the A. you know?

School is over and I am pleased. The only work of mine chosen for the student show was what I had completed on my own precious time (OPT.) There is a pretty even distinction between school assignments, school assignments I do again and slightly different for extra credit, and personal work. I turn out dog shit for homework.

We're (Mandy, Crystal and I) currently in the process of giving yours truly a hair make-over. Yes, it takes two stylists and a "process" to get it right. I feel like a celebrity.

I am currently harboring an extremely inappropriate crush that I don't know what to do about.

JCVR was in town earlier this week and we didn't even hang out. I feel bad about it.

Currently, I need to figure out how to make someone feel better who doesn't like to admit to needing to feel better. Someone who usually always makes me feel better and I don't know what to do now that it's the other way around.

I wish JD and I were OMD. That would solve everything.
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[12 May 2008|11:24am]
2+| i want an explanation.

get in the car, loser! [09 Mar 2008|02:52pm]
i want an explanation.

thanks for the heads up, npr.org [04 Mar 2008|09:36pm]
4+| i want an explanation.


Last week one of my studio professors told me "It looks like you might be standing around a lot." This isn't okay. I didn't work as hard as I did to get back into school and just stand around. I've been standing around for the past two years and I am so ready to move move move.

What's going on? Well, at the end of February I am moving [which is so shocking, I know.] This will consist of giving many things away [to goodwill] and throwing away even more. Also, painting over my kitchen [chanel pink] and "bedroom" [gold] -I have spent so much money on painting places I never intend on staying in. Don't worry, I will definitely paint the next place, too. Because I don't learn anything ever. Then again, this one I am "really staying in this time. "

The Temple Bar has agreed to host H2D and we can't wait. They have the best DJ booth and the dance floor is the perfect size. I also have big plans of buying one of the Richard Prince-designed bags for Louis Vuitton. I already went to the store and my name is on the list. I will regret this decission once the recession sets it... But then I will get another student loan and forget all about it.

Before moving, I am trying to place everything I don't need for the next month in boxes, which makes me sort of think I might not need a lot of those things ever. 

This next month will be devoted to finishing my first big clothing piece, 3 paintings I have been neglecting, and finally, my homework in a timely fashion.

i want an explanation.

[12 Jan 2008|04:45pm]
Hey, your opinions mean nothing to me unless they are paired with action. I am talking about my co-workers in that sentence.

I am asking for a raise on Feb. 1st. CCS is paying for my entire winter semester. Other stuff, other stuff.
1+| i want an explanation.

[31 Dec 2007|12:00pm]
let's be facebook friends. it's just ash nowak / adnowak@gmail.com -that place is crazy.
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finally. [11 Dec 2007|04:49pm]

Yesterday I experienced my yearly car crash. After giving up on trying to regain control, I just said "Looks like I'm taking out this sign. Ready? Reeaaady? Almost there..." All in slow motion. [I'm fine, by the way, just pissed off.]

So after rent, a new tire and rim, and some half-price nachos at the WAB, I am eating day-old bread and Kombucha for lunch. And only the Kambucha because I had abandoned it in the work refridgerator almost a month ago, and surprisngly, no one has so much as opened it. 

9+| i want an explanation.

$13 dollars for unlimited Halloween fun... [31 Oct 2007|04:11pm]
KT and I just got $13 Halloween tattoos. I have a moon with bats flying out of it, KT has a Gene Simmons skull. I almost got a skull wearing an Indian head dress, but we can save that for next year. Or tomorrow. Whatever.

here's another reason this year is shaping up to be one of the best ever. If you hadn't heard, I was Donatella Versace, but could have also passed for a white New York, ala "I love New York" and "Flavor of Love."
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[17 Oct 2007|08:52pm]
Maybe next time I want to complain about my job I should just remember that I get to make Rocky Horror Picture Show-themed display windows all day long and spend money that isn't mine at Halloween USA on festive decor.

Just sayin'.
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[30 Sep 2007|06:43pm]
three or four times a day i have to turn my love all the way down but you can still hear the belt turning and i don't think you mind.
i want an explanation.

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